Hello my beautiful people and welcome back to the moments podcast.
Today I'm just having one of those days.
A deep, deep, deep one of those days.
It is so windy outside and gloomy and cold.
And I'm really working on appreciating that kind of weather because
Florida gets it a bit in the summertime to like, you know, have an inside
day where I do work and, you know, be productive and all that stuff.
But I'm an outside girl.
I need my sunshine to feel like a functioning human.
That being said, I haven't appreciated it more, but today is just built different.
I did not sleep well last night.
I just like kept falling in and out of sleep and never really felt comfortable in my
sleep, but I hate when I don't feel comfortable in my sleep.
I just could not position my body in a good spot.
So didn't sleep well.
I woke up and I'm a little bit like nauseous and I kind of have a headache and my stomach
hurts and I'm just so exhausted.
I took my car to the service shop this morning and I was like, okay, today is going to be
so great and productive.
I have two hours while they fix my car to, you know, get some work done.
All I did was sit on the Jeep website and design a car that I'm not even going to get
anytime soon.
I was like, okay, whatever.
That was fun.
Let me go home, make a coffee, then I'll get moving.
You know, truth be told, I never got moving.
I'm still sitting in my bed.
Like I changed.
I got workout clothes on.
I walked Leia.
Oh, I was walking the dog and I got freaking poured on.
It was not raining.
All of a sudden we're 10 minutes in.
We're sprinting back home.
I get inside completely soaking wet rain stops.
I'm like, all right, maybe I need to take a freaking nap because I just could not keep my
eyes open.
I go out back.
I put a bin suit on.
Maybe I'll get some sunshine through the clouds.
No, it's so windy.
So cold.
I can't nap.
Like, okay, let me nap inside.
Can't nap.
I'm really bad at napping.
Like anytime I try to, all my mind can think about is all the things that I should be doing
and I could be doing.
And then that's what was happening even when I wasn't napping and I was trying to do things
on my phone.
I just kept scrolling on TikTok and then I was on TikTok for so long that it made me feel
physically nauseous.
And yeah, I think I've explained enough the kind of day it is.
I don't know if it's because it's the last day of my period or two days ago from when I
drank, my hangover is just catching on.
Like it's just, it's something and it's just one of those days.
I don't know how long I can ramble on about how it's one of those days, but it's kind of
going to lead me into what I want to talk about today.
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I am kind of going to go through a bunch of different things.
I want, I have this one section in my notes app and it's called Baby.
I hope your life is bright and beautiful.
And then in there, I just write different quotes or phrases or pieces of,
pieces of advice that have just stuck with me and most of the things in there are
really valuable.
So I want to share a couple of them with you.
But the first thing I want to tell you is, I don't know where I heard this.
I don't know if it was a YouTube video, an article, a TikTok, whatever it was.
Or if it was someone in person, they told me to look at your life, like it's a game,
right?
A football game, a basketball game, a game where there's four different quarters.
And apply that to your life in the sense that just because you're losing in the
first quarter, doesn't mean you're going to be losing in the second quarter.
Or just because you're down the whole first half, it doesn't mean you can't
come back in the second half or vice versa.
You know, like you would lose it in the third quarter, pull through in the fourth
quarter.
You could go really strong in the first quarter and then lose in the fourth quarter.
Either way, like no matter what, as long as you're playing your best and you're
doing the best that you can, like you need to be proud of yourself for playing in
that game.
And the way that I look at this is I had a really, really long phase of my life where
I was struggling badly with sleeping in.
I was so embarrassed about it, but it was something that I almost physically couldn't
help.
I could not fall asleep at night.
No matter how hard I tried until like 3 a.m. because I just couldn't get off my
phone.
And like these things, I'm silly.
And I know that if you're not someone who struggled with this, you're like, dude,
just turn your phone off.
When you physically go through it or you know someone who physically goes through
struggles with their mental health, like you understand that these problems are
kind of unavoidable, no matter how much you try things certain times.
I mean, other times, yes, you have to put in a little bit of extra work to make the
things possible and you have to start small and you have to trust yourself over time.
But whatever you're going through, whatever you're feeling mentally, whatever phase of
life you're in, your struggles are heard.
You're not alone.
And people might make you feel small, they might make you feel weak for going through
things.
But honestly, I want you to know that going through things makes you stronger because
eventually you do come out on the other side and everything gets better and life gets lighter.
Back to the point, I was in this phase of waking up at 10, 11, maybe not even getting
out of bed till 12.
Like that's just never been me.
I never wanted to be someone who slept in and there's literally nothing wrong with it.
If your life works better that way, then that's incredible for you.
But for me personally, I don't like it.
I would feel like my whole day was already wasted.
I wouldn't even get my day fully started until 2, 3 p.m.
And at that point, I was like, oh, it's the end of the day.
And I just never really felt accomplished or and I never really felt productive.
And I felt like I was losing valuable hours of my life, even though I was staying up later
in those night hours.
Those aren't valuable hours of life, if that makes sense.
Like I would rather do more in the day from 7 a.m. to 10 p.m. and go to bed at 11, then
do more from 10 p.m. to four.
Anyways, the point is when I was going through that, I was always, always, always stressed,
overwhelmed, anxious.
Every feeling in the book you could imagine that was just hard and heavy and painful,
I would feel, but I wouldn't be able to help it.
And that's because I was looking at life in this like, I don't know, a normal way.
And I started doing this thing where I viewed life as different quarters and I realized
just because I fumble in the beginning of the day, doesn't mean the rest of the day
has gone.
And that was kind of how I felt all day today.
I had to remind myself of this all day today because I woke up, you know, had a productive
first quarter, got my car serviced, was feeling great, second quarter was rough, and third
quarter is right now.
And I wasn't even going to record this episode, even though, you know, I have deadlines when
I record these and I like to be ahead, but with how much is going on in my life, I'm
usually not ahead.
I'm usually like sending these and getting these all exported the day that needs to be
done.
I kind of love it that way.
Kind of hate it that way.
But I wasn't going to record this, so I was just like, I can't do it.
My head's all over the place.
My brain's all over the place.
I honestly don't feel so good.
And I'm just not.
I'm going to put it off.
And then there was a part of me that was like, okay, but gross, the third quarter, you
can come back right now.
And honestly, you should show yourself feeling like this and like talking this way because
I don't know.
I think it's really easy for me to create content, be open minded, be super positive,
and I don't know, just more joyful and light when I'm in a good headspace.
And I don't even want to say I'm in a bad headspace right now, but I find it so much
harder to talk about things when I'm in a bad headspace because I'm just more tired
like I'm physically exhausted and fatigued and thoughts don't process through my mind
as easily as I'd like them to.
And my brain just feels kind of dull and empty.
And I was like ashamed of that and embarrassed of that, not even, not even ashamed or embarrassed
of that.
I just, I mean, listen to me.
How many times am I going to probably repeat the same thing in this episode a lot, but
I'm just showing you the real bra.
Sometimes some days look like this kind of version of me.
And I am always saying, you know, like, oh, you know, somebody's your mental health is
not good.
Some days it is good.
Yadda yadda yadda.
I go back and listen to most of the podcast episodes I've done this year.
I feel really blessed and really lucky that my mental health has been pretty on fire.
Like I have felt really, really good lately.
And I think that when I look at last year's podcast, I was not okay.
Like I kind of even even just from reading the titles, a lot of the titles from the end
of last year were just like dealing with a bad headspace, bad rut.
Like I'm in a funk.
I don't know how to get out of it versus this year.
It's like how to get out of a funk, how to love yourself, how to appreciate life, how
to show gratitude.
And it's been so cool to watch myself go through all those waves of life.
But then I kind of remember like how different points felt and what it was like to go through
all those moments and like being in those moments was so hard and it's cool now to be
able to look back and see that I made it through it.
And I guess that's just something I want to share with you in this episode is that wherever
you are, and I know it kind of just said this, you got to know that it's going to get better.
And if you can at least start by believing that it's going to slowly, slowly, slowly,
but surely make you feel better.
You just got to believe all the things that you put out into the universe and also recognize
and I'm pretty sure I talked about this.
I don't know if it was a TikTok or if it was last week's podcast.
I get all caught up because between TikTok, Instagram stories, trying to film things for
YouTube and doing the podcast, I don't know who I told what, you know, but I want to get
the message across to everyone and shut up Lexi.
I just want to tell you that everything that you think, everything that you manifest, everything
that you believe is in some way, shape, or form going to come true for you.
And this works really, really well for us when we are thinking positive.
We are thinking gratitude.
We are thinking lucky girl syndrome.
We are believing in ourselves.
We're feeling confident.
We're being kind to other people.
This is when this works great for us.
Good things come back to us.
Good karma comes back to us.
We feel more motivated, more inspired, more creative because we're open to the universe
or God or whoever it is sending us these messages to pursue things and just be more of a light.
And then the time that this sucks is when your thoughts are in a really bad place because
it works both ways.
Just as you can say, like, oh, I'm so lucky and great things happen for me.
They will.
But if you think, oh, I'm so ugly.
I'm not good enough for anyone.
I'm never going to accomplish this.
I'm such a failure.
I look like shit.
I feel like shit.
And we constantly think like this.
And again, I know that a lot of times it's out of our control.
I'm just bringing awareness to certain things.
It doesn't mean they're going to change overnight.
And it doesn't mean they're your fault.
I'm just saying.
When we think these things and our thoughts are so heavy, that is the universe.
That is the energy that the universe provides right back to us.
It is not going to place people in our life who are going to love us for who we truly are
because we aren't even loving ourselves for who we truly are.
It is not going to bring us good people that are going to treat us kindly if we are not
treating other people around us kindly.
It is not going to bring us success and, you know, success and accomplishments if we are
constantly comparing ourselves to others and wishing that we had things that other people
have.
And that's a cool thing.
It's a cool thing.
And it's just something I've been thinking about a lot lately.
So I figured I would share it.
And again, I don't know if I already said it.
I just love you guys.
I just love this podcast.
I can't believe it's been almost two years.
In October, it will be two years of doing this podcast together.
And it all started with some person.
I wonder if the person listening to this or the person who commented this is listening
to the podcast.
But some of the comments that you should start a podcast on one of my Coffee Talk videos.
And I really thought about it.
And I really thought about how passionate I've always been about mental health and just
sharing all the things that I learned from other people in my life and how in a sense
it's what I do on all the platforms I have.
And it would be really cool to do it long term and just build such a family community
of people who I know I can trust and who I trust with my whole entire life.
On the trust note, you guys are doing so good keeping the podcast secret about the boyfriend.
I love it.
Oh, I the best.
Oh, you're the only ones that know that's a lie.
There's one other group of people that know.
But what I was saying is that I just really appreciate you guys.
And I love that I can come on here and I can feel like this and I can be in a headspace
like this and I can upload this podcast and not feel upset about what people are going
to say about me.
If they're going to say, I don't know what I'm doing, yada, yada, yada.
It's cool and it's comforting because when I first started doing social media, I was
at a point where everything that people said altered the things that I would do.
And it wasn't intentionally even, but I would I would do all the trends, follow all the aesthetics
just because that's what people seem to like.
And whenever I would do anything different or something that was just, you know, for my
own passion or my own love, people would just be like, I don't know, make comments.
And they would actually bother me or they would comment on the way that I look.
So I would change the way that I look.
I remember when I was getting comments about how much weight I gained.
That was the first time I ever even noticed that I looked any different and there's nothing
wrong with gaining weight.
But when people are saying the most terrible things, you know, you start to feel like bad
about yourself.
And now I've gone to a point where I honestly couldn't care less.
I feel so safe with you guys and with myself and just knowing that I'm where I'm supposed
to be and I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing and learning not to take anything
personally and just understand that people are going to project their own insecurities
onto me.
And people are at broken points in their lives where instead of, you know, filling their
own cup, they just want to empty out everyone else's.
And we all go through that phase.
Like without realizing it, we've all been there and we've all done that.
We've all said things that we shouldn't have said or, you know, not been the kindest to
the stranger that cut you off.
Like you probably flipped them off instead of just letting it go and moving on.
Like there's, it's all in the little things.
It really is all in the little things.
And yeah, just some thoughts on my mind.
I'm going to go into my notes app now and I'm going to read you a couple of the things
that I really like that I have in here from this section of my notes.
And I don't know what I'm going to title this episode.
I feel like we're rambling, but I also feel like there's some good stuff in here.
I love you guys so much.
You have no idea.
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Back to the podcast.
Okay.
Oh, I like this one.
It's really simple.
It's really cheesy.
You've definitely heard it before, but tomorrow is not promised.
And this is something that's been heavy on my thoughts too because I just experienced
something in my personal life.
Wasn't directly related to me, but it was.
I had to...
I lost someone in my life.
I wasn't super, super close with this person, but this person was still a part of my life
and they lost their life unexpectedly and harshly and in the blink of an eye.
And it kind of made me think about how we really have no idea if we will wake up tomorrow.
We have no idea what could happen to us the next day, what could happen to the person
that you love most.
And when I started thinking about life like that, I really started to understand that
I have to live like tomorrow is not promised.
I have to love everyone and I have to accept that at certain points.
Like who knows what I say to Lissette tonight could be the last thing I ever say to her
and obviously like, no, I'm not going to think like that, but it's just a cool reminder
to always live a life of love first.
And there's a quote that I really, really like and I can't remember it at all, but it's
something along the lines of be satisfied if this was the last thing you said to this
person.
Okay, all I'm trying to say, I stared out the window and I lost my train of thought.
All I'm trying to say is that just treat people with love, never leave a fight unresolved,
never leave tension with someone that you love.
Like just be proactive in the sense that life is short and we need to love each other
as much as we can because when we spend a life holding a grudge or having anger towards
people, it only builds more anger up within you.
And I think that that's a lesson that I'm learning a lot in my life right now too.
I look back and I want to do a whole episode on friendship.
There's just a lot of like personal things in there.
So it's like iffy, what can I share and what can I not share when it comes to friendship
advice, but there was a point in my life, not even all that long ago that I was surrounding
myself with people who were just really, really bad for me.
And I put up with a lot, I really just let people walk all over me.
Like my car got stolen and then like my friends got my car stolen, I get mad at all.
Like I still don't care about that.
But then like I flew back to where I was going and they couldn't even pick, like they wouldn't
even pick me up from the airport and like I just look back on things like that.
And for so long, I didn't see anything wrong with it.
And then once I finally understood that that was like really not okay and that was not cool
and I should not have put up with that, I had a grudge for a really long time.
And now I've gone to a point where I've learned holding that grudge does absolutely nothing
for me.
I have shifted the friendships in my life.
I am now surrounded by people who love me and appreciate me and would drop anything that
they were doing if I needed them.
And those are the kind of people you should have in your life.
But I realized that holding a grudge against this other group of friends wasn't doing me
any good.
And they've grown, they've evolved.
We still have great friendships, they're just better and healthier from afar.
And like there's absolutely nothing wrong with that.
It's not beef, it's not tension, it's not a problem, it's just we were immature.
And like we have grown apart from each other and I think a lot of situations that we have
beef with people or tension with people kind of turn into that.
It's like okay why am I still holding on to this?
What is this doing for me?
Absolutely nothing.
It's only bringing my energy down when I think about it.
Like no, it's fine.
Move on.
What I sort of think about like that way, I don't know, it just helps me realize like
just let the freak go.
Why, why have anger towards people?
Why have problems with people?
Just find something different to focus on.
Again, one of those things is just so much easier said than done.
I'm gonna read the next one.
Okay, this one I love.
Again, it's probably when you've heard a lot of these things on my notes app you've heard
before.
I think I'm gonna do a whole episode of them though because there's, this thing is pages
and pages long and I'm only gonna do a couple because I, for some reason I'm deep diving
into them.
This one is you never know what someone else is going through and this is the one I've
had to really learn to apply to my life when it comes to bad drivers.
This is like the first thing I think of when I think of this quote is someone cuts you off,
someone is speeding, someone is just a jerk on the road, someone is driving really slow,
they're turning really slow.
I, I don't want to say I get road rage but I get pissed off when people around me can't
drive.
Like you can hear it just in the way that I talk about it and it's something I'm really
working on.
I don't know why it makes me so angry but it really comes out when people can't drive
and I kind of just realized recently not realized what am I freaking saying you guys?
What am I saying?
I'm gonna take a breather.
Take a deep breath with me, re-center yourself, re-center your thoughts, let it go.
Back to the point.
You don't know what someone is going through and when I see people turn really slow now,
I just have convinced myself to tell myself that maybe they have a baby in the car or
a birthday cake in the car or a wedding cake or a dog, something, some kind of reason that
they have to turn slow or if they're driving slow in the fast lane of the highway, maybe
there's something or someone really valuable in the car or if they're flying on the highway,
maybe their wife is in the car giving birth or it's a dad trying to make his way to his
little, little kids first soccer game.
Like when I started telling myself those things, of course in every case they're probably
not true but maybe if in one in a hundred of them they are, I'm glad that I didn't get
angry at that person for doing the best they can for someone else.
I'm glad that I just appreciated humans being humans.
I've started to just take on life in a way where I just don't want to hold a grudge,
I don't want to be angry at people, I don't want to feel anger, I just want to live and
breathe easier because again like I've said many times in this episode, anger does nothing
good for you.
It's not a single thing, like yeah you can say, oh it motivates me, it inspires me, but
at what cost?
Like you know, at what cost?
There's other ways we can feel motivated and inspired and it shouldn't be through anger.
And anger catches up to us too.
When you start living a life of anger and you create anger as a habit or habitual feeling
or emotion that you go through, it only gets stronger and stronger and that's when people
find alcohol, they find drugs to just numb the anger or even if it's neither of those
things.
Do you really want to feel anger more and more and more the older you get?
No.
I know we've all met some really angry old people.
I bet they could have helped that out if they stayed less angry when they were younger.
I don't know.
Let's just be happier little people.
And the ways that I do that are just convincing myself that people are doing really important
things or going really important places or carrying a lot of valuables when they're
driving bad.
It's little things like that.
You know?
Okay.
The next one I have, ooh, I do like this one, stop thinking about what you're missing out
on and look at what is right in front of you.
Huge problem I had for a very long time.
Most of the quotes I have in here are things that I've just related really heavily to me.
So I have stories on most of them.
But for a long time, I think we've all done this.
We all do this.
My life was really, really all about comparison.
I was constantly looking at what other people were doing, whether it was on social media
or my personal friends or people that I know in my life.
I would compare what I was doing to what they were doing.
And subconsciously, I think in my head, I was like, I have to do that.
Or I have to do that better.
I don't know.
It seems silly and I hate even admitting that because that's never someone I've wanted
to be and it was never with bad intentions at all.
But I just spent a lot of my life comparing and I think I was just doing things to do
things because other people were doing things.
And I've talked about this a lot this year too.
I've learned to really just appreciate a simple schedule in habits and things that make me
feel good, like taking care of my body and walking my dog and waking up early and going
to sunrise and not going out every weekend just because my friends wanted to and not
traveling every other week just because opportunities arose.
Like I really evaluated what is actually making me feel good and what is burning me out.
And last year when I was traveling back to back to back, yeah, all of those trips were
incredible, some of the best memories of my life.
But every time I would come home, I would be a disaster because I would come home for
four days at a time and I would like cry and I would be emotional and I would write these
to-do lists that were pages and pages and pages long and could have been a book and
I wouldn't be able to get everything done.
And then the process would just reset.
And again, like I really don't want it to come across like I'm not grateful for all
the opportunities I've had and all the things that I do.
I've been able to do.
I just want you to know that like these things are normal and they're real and we all feel
them and that's how life goes.
And I don't know, I just don't want to hide anything from you guys.
I'm not going to sit here and act like I don't know.
Rambling, we're moving on.
Did I even finish like what I was talking about with that?
Basically just appreciate your life for what it is right now and evaluate your life.
If it is not, if you're having a hard time appreciating your life, evaluate your life.
What are the things going on in your life that are bringing you down that are tearing
you apart that are hurting your feelings?
And get them out, get them out or just do what you can to help yourself feel better.
Just look out for yourself, okay?
Be your own best friend.
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That being said, I got this thing called a lo-me and it is the coolest thing ever.
I didn't know what to expect.
But basically it's this little counter top contraption that turns your food scraps into
dirt so it's a composter.
And I am constantly like eating vegetables and I'm cutting the tops off my strawberries
and carrots and yada yada yada.
I have all this leftover food that I don't want to just throw away.
The coolest part?
When you put the scraps in, it doesn't make any smell and it goes from food scraps to
dirt in under four hours.
I have less garbage that I'm taking out and I know that less is going into the landfills
which are producing less methane.
So ultimately it's just a really cool way to protect the earth and take care of the earth
and it's just a really cool and awesome contraption that I wanted to tell you about.
I think it's something you should definitely check out and if you want to start making
a positive and environmental impact or just make some soil, you should go to lo-me.com
slash moments.
That's L-O-M-I dot com slash moments and then use the promo code moments and you'll get
$50 off your lo-me.
Food waste is gross.
Let lo-me save your trip out to the garbage can.
Now back to the podcast.
I love this one and I've talked about this time and time and time and time again and
I will take this to the grave like write this on my grave.
Whatever.
The five closest people to you.
Wait, the five closest people you surround yourself with is who you are going to become.
I cannot stress this enough.
You are, you pick up pieces from all the people that you keep around you.
That's why you have certain traits from, I mean besides genetics and DNA.
That's why you pick up on certain traits from your best friend, from your mom, from your
dad, from your boyfriend, from the people you're in class with, the people you watch
on social media.
That's a big one too.
If you're watching someone so constantly on social media on keeping up on their lives,
you're going to pick up traits from them and that's beautiful when you are surrounding
yourself with the right people who uplift you.
My mom in high school told you guys this story before too, like wouldn't let me hang out
with certain people and I would get so upset with her because I thought they were so cool
and they partied every weekend and they did drugs and I like, I don't know, I wanted
to do all that in high school.
I thought it was so cool.
My parents were a little bit strict.
They still let me do what I want but for the most part they were strict and they said
no, you cannot hang out with that group and I kind of realized the older I got, yeah,
it's probably for the better because I can pinky promise you that if I would have started
hanging out with them, I would probably be doing the same things and there's nothing
wrong with that.
It's just not the path that I would have chosen had, I hung out with different people, had
whatever.
I think you get the point.
I just want you to know that you need to make sure the people, this goes right back to
the friend story I was just telling you.
The group of friends that I was hanging out with at this time and point in my life just
talk shit about people, made people feel bad about themselves, me being one of those people
and I just put up with it and I can't say I picked up on any of those traits.
I was always the one to say something and be like, shut up, that's not how we talk about
people that we spend time with or that's not how we talk about anyone in general.
But still there were certain things where I like kind of, once I wasn't hanging out with
that group of people anymore, I look back and I'm like, dude, that was not a priority in
my life.
That only became a priority in my life because it was a priority in the lives of the people
around me.
And when you think about life like that, when you think about how if you became one person
who was a combination of the five people you keep closest to you, would you appreciate,
like, would you like, would you like that person?
This is just my way of reminding you that you need to have friends who treat others right
and treat themselves right and treat you right and inspire you and help teach you and help
you grow and believe in you and support you.
And you also have to make sure that you are someone who supports this person and loves
them and treats them right because you guys want to have a relationship where you can
both build each other up and you want to grow.
And I think that that is something you should think about with every relationship in your
life, every friendship.
There's no point in watering the weeds.
Like, you know, you don't need the weeds to keep growing.
Water the flowers, water the garden.
I don't know if that made any sense.
I just pulled that out of my butthole.
But yeah, we're moving on to the next one.
Okay.
Next, next, next.
I'm scrolling, I'm scrolling.
Ooh, ooh, ooh, I like this one.
Okay, when you discover your self-worth, you lose interest in anyone who doesn't see it.
Kind of touched on this.
You kind of talked about it a bit, but it's so real.
Like when I was struggling with knowing who I was, who I wanted to be, what I liked to
do, what I loved, how I liked to dress and how I liked to do my hair, I searched for
a lot of validation in other people.
And I wanted people to tell me I was beautiful or that, you know, I looked good or I was doing
good or I was successful and I just craved a lot more outside validation.
And then again, when I came to this whole phase this year where I took the time to spend
alone with myself and really figure out and like sit still at home too and figure out
what it is that I enjoyed in my life and the outfits that I like to wear and the way that
I like to do my hair and how I like to have two different nail colors.
And I usually look like a hot mess when I go out in public and I don't like to make
my hair look nice or anything.
Like I kind of learned to just accept that and be okay with that.
Like if that was something I loved about myself, if that was something that helps me feel free
and connected to whatever it is, I couldn't care less.
But someone else has to say about that because if there's someone who doesn't love me for
the version of me that I love, why would I change for them?
Why would I change for someone who is going to temporarily be in my life when the person
that is going to be in my life forever being me already loves me?
You know what I'm saying?
Picking up what I'm putting down.
Let's keep moving on.
Okay, I'm going to do this one and then maybe one more.
Some doesn't change the situation, right?
But it changes how it feels.
Touched on this too.
These all kind of tie into one another in some way, shape, or form.
You can have a lot of shit happen to you.
You're going to have a lot of shit happen to you.
And it's not the things that you can expect.
It's not the boy rejecting you.
It's not, I don't know, like nading your outfit.
It's like when life gives you things that you really didn't see coming.
And it throws you a curveball that is just a lot heavier than the rest of them.
You can't change that from happening.
That's a part of growth.
That's a part of life.
It's the circle of life.
It's how it goes.
But you can find something to appreciate about it.
No matter how deep, hard, heartbreaking it is, you have to put in the work to find something
to appreciate about it.
And like I'm going to give you a very personal example right now.
I lost my grandpa in 2021.
And he went into the hospital for just like a simple little fix, like something very simple.
And he ended up passing away 10 days later.
We didn't see it coming.
He was only 70.
We were always like pretty close with my grandpa, but he wasn't like the grandpa that I call
every single day, you know?
And when he went into the hospital was the first time I saw him so many times in one
month or one week.
And once he passed away.
Obviously I had nothing but grief to feel.
I didn't feel like there was anything to appreciate.
I just lost my grandpa and I didn't plan on losing my grandpa the way that I did.
But constantly thinking about that and feeling heartbroken about that wasn't going to make
me feel any better.
Wasn't going to make him feel any better up and having looking down on me.
He wouldn't want me to hurt.
He wouldn't want me to be upset.
He would want me to continue my life and live it for him and live through him.
And I just taught myself to appreciate the fact that I got to spend so much time with
him at the end of his life and he's going to remember that and I'm going to remember
that for the rest of forever.
And I learned to appreciate that I now have this guardian angel who is going to look over
me in everything that I do and help make sure I'm on the right path and lead me in the right
direction and talk to me with signs and signs that only I can see.
I'll give you another example that aligns perfectly with this.
Currently in the process of looking for a house in a city coast of mine I want to be
my mom just love projects and I'm working on investing my money and I really want to
buy a property and whether I turn it into an Airbnb, rent it out, whatever it is that
I do with it.
The point is we looked at a house yesterday and we got in the backyard and there's a
fire hydrant.
My grandpa is a firefighter by the way.
So anytime I hear sirens or see a fire hydrant or whatever it is I think of him and that's
him saying hello.
So my mom and I walk out into the backyard and she's got to walk away because she starts
crying but I only see those signs because I'm open to seeing those signs and I believe
in things whether people want to say you know you're believing in nothing it's stupid
it's a hoax.
Okay cool.
If believing makes me feel better and I want to believe I'm going to believe.
So the point is you got to find something to be happy.
You got to find some way to make yourself happy to appreciate the shit that's going
to be handed to you.
And again like that doesn't change the situation no but it does change how it makes you feel
and now like I can look back on my grandpa's passing and see it as this blessing in disguise
and it's just I don't know we're moving on.
Oh this is my favorite and I'm doing a whole podcast episode on it so I'm just going to
read it to you and then I'm going to leave it at that.
Never criticize the way someone expresses joy.
This goes through my head every single freaking day and we'll deep dive into it another time
but essentially never ever ever put up with someone.
Well first of all your reminder never ever ever make fun of the way someone laughs make
fun of the way someone's real smile looks make fun of the way someone's eyes crinkle
when they smile make fun of the way you laugh you smile or you look when you're at your
happiest or your your weird noises you make when you're excited.
When you criticize the way someone feels happiness you make it a lot harder for them
to be happy and you make it a lot harder for them to be comfortable being happy in front
of other people and that's just a life lesson that really really sits deep with me ever
since I first read that and I also want you to take that as your sign that you should
never put up with someone who criticizes the way that you express joy because you deserve
to 100% fully genuinely express any kind of happiness that comes from within you and
however way you show it you should feel comfortable to do so because joy is beautiful laughter
is beautiful expression is beautiful and I don't think that you should I mean I'm besides
wait even further than joy like never criticize the way someone goes through grief or someone
hurts like just let people express the way that they want to express because when we
can express our emotions we get through things a lot quicker so if you're part of the reason
someone can't that's not cool you know and same thing with people in your life make sure
that they allow you to fully express everything and anything so I think that's where I'm going
to leave this and if you want another episode like this couldn't even tell you what I talked
about to be completely honest but if you want another one like it happy to do so and thank
you guys for listening to me ramble and rant when I didn't even think my mind was capable
of doing so you guys have given me a little bit of a shift in energy for today and again
the whole reason I started this episode was just to tell you that you know you got four
quarters and as long as you play your best game you're doing just fine okay so it's
it's effort that counts and also no you know you're fumbling in the first and second quarter
you still got time in the second half and that's what I'm gonna do with the rest of my day
but I love you guys and I appreciate you with my whole heart and couldn't do this life without
you and hopefully tomorrow's a better day than today was and if it's not then you know
what we'll get through it tomorrow too okay I love you guys have the best day ever and
I'll see you next Monday.